I EYE

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The eye is the lamp of the body; so then if your eye is clear, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. (a Bible quote I learned all those years ago in Catholic school that stuck with me)

I am Justin William Hoenke. I do not know who you are. I mean, I know your name and some other things, but for the most part I don’t know you. I will never know you. And this is OK. This does not mean that I do not like you or I am a horrible human being. I think it just sums up a simple fact about human beings who live on planet Earth: we really can only know ourselves in our short time here. We can acknowledge others and understand that they too do exist but we can never really know them. All we can really know is ourselves.

The concept of self is often made even more confusing when you see it through the lenses of modern society. Modern society wants you to think and feel a certain way and to also adopt an “approved” set of words, phrases, and ideas about what it means to be a human being. It gets confusing!

This is a good place to put things that are in my head, so I will make a list right now of the things that I have come to understand that are part of Justin William Hoenke. Maybe it will help you understand me a bit more, but honestly this is really so I can understand myself a little bit better.

  • I am a human being.
  • I am a husband.
  • I am a father.
  • I am a son.
  • I am a nephew.
  • I am a cousin.
  • I am a friend.
  • I work at libraries.
  • I enjoy Nintendo video games.
  • I enjoy listening to music.
  • I enjoy reading non fiction.
  • I enjoy waking up naturally without the aid of an alarm clock.
  • I enjoy pajamas.
  • I like to eat pizza, tater tots, french fries, cucumbers, bananas, rice, and zucchini.
  • I enjoy drinking Guinness as my beer of choice.
  • I like to stay inside of my house/on my property as much as possible.
  • I do not like to schmooze with others.
  • I do not believe that “getting political about things” helps us solve problems.
  • I think we may have done this whole “modern society” thing the wrong way and would like a do-over.
  • I hope more for a shift to an open minded mass consciousness.
  • I like it when people work together.
  • I do not like it when people use each other to achieve their goals.
  • I do not want to be engaged in any “pat my back and I’ll pat your back” kind of situation.
  • I like gritty, dark, and kind of evil movies and TV shows (think Martin Scorsese)
  • I think that “have fun” is a good way to approach every day.
  • I struggle with depression.
  • I go from high highs to low lows.
  • I have not been diagnosed as bi-polar but I think there may be something in there.
  • Most times I just kind of want to be left alone.
  • I could play Animal Crossing all day every day.
  • I am beginning to enjoy physical work over mental work.
  • I wanted to create video games as my profession when I was growing up.
  • I originally went to college to learn animation.
  • I was once in a band that released two albums of music that can be streamed/purchased on pretty much every single music platform out there.
  • I chose librarianship as my profession because I wanted my career to be something that gave back to my community.
  • I am afraid of the idea of starting up a business (see this) but at the same time very excited about it and aware that this is indeed the path I must take in life.
  • I enjoy eating at the Imperial China Buffet in Erie, PA.
  • If I had to pick a favorite fast food, it would be a toss up between Taco Bell and White Castle.
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3 thoughts on “I EYE

  1. I have been meaning to respond forever. Lists like these are so helpful. It’s like when I tell students they need to brainstorm to see what directions they can head into or see what they already know when they are doing a research paper.

    Have you thought about doing a “five-year journal?” Erika Morris, one of my online librarian friends, recently talked about wanting to do one. Here is a link she shared with me: http://debbiehodge.com/2012/01/5-year-journal-01/
    I think I’m going to do one!

    Your post also reminds me of a “poem” I wrote in college that was a list, “Rice and Beans.” I think I’m too embarrassed to go digging for it. I was 20/21 at the time I wrote it and had just experienced my first-ever breakup. I think I was trying to piece myself back together by keeping tabs of all of all my various elements. haha

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