WEEK OF MUSIC: “Either Way I’m Fine”

It makes me so very happy to be able to put this new album out into the world.

All of the albums that I have shared this week were written and recorded between 2004 and 2009. Once Haley and I started growing our family I just kind of stopped. It wasn’t one of those big planned out things…it just happened that way. I still played a lot of acoustic guitar around the house and there was always music happening, but it just wasn’t anything that got recorded and released. I had about 8 years to sit with this music and after all those years it got me thinking….maybe I should try to record another album?

I’ve refocused myself around the name ABIGAIL FOSTER’S PHOTOSYNTHESIS MACHINE. Who is Abigail Foster? What’s a Photosynthesis Machine? I don’t know, but I like how it all sounds together!  With all of this nicely put together and a name in place, I gathered what I had, put it all back together as ABIGAIL FOSTER’S PHOTOSYNTHESIS MACHINE, and this week I’ve released all of that music back out into the world.

And today is the last day for that music, but with this final day comes something neato: a completely new album titled EITHER WAY I’M FINE.

This album is the sound of settling into life. It is the sound of a human being and his family. It is the sound of Fidelia Hall. It is a glimpse into the years between 2009-2016 and everything in between. It encompasses a lot of chapters and ideas: Gemini. Happiness. Depression. Extremes. Feelings. Muted. Thoughts. Actions. Wind chimes. Chickens. Family. Rabbits. Boys. Old churches. Moving. Growth. Leadership. Failing. Love. Being. Community. Understanding. Chaos. Mother. Father. Brother. Work. Building. Patience. Conspiracies. EITHER WAY I’M FINE.

You have a few options with how you can listen to and download these albums:

  1. You can purchase the albums at the Abigail Foster’s Photosynthesis Machine website. The albums are $7 each and any money made from the purchase of these albums goes into one of two things: Arbacarba Records, which will invest the money in making these albums available on streaming platforms (Spotify, Apple Music, etc) or Fidelia Hall, which will help with the repairs and restoration of this 144 year old community center. Once purchased, you can download the albums in a variety of formats (MP3, FLAC, and more) or stream them via the free Bandcamp app (iTunes, Android)
  2. You can stream the albums for free at the Abigail Foster’s Photosynthesis Machine website.
  3. If you are a library (public, academic, special) and you wish to add any of the Abigail Foster’s Photosynthesis Machine albums to your digital collection, you may do so by contacting me at justinthelibrarian at gmail dot com and I will gladly share these albums with you as MP3 or WAV formats. Once you have these files, your library will be able to provide your library card patrons with these albums for free by adding them to your library digital music collection at no cost to you.

I hope you enjoy this album!

 

 

EITHER WAY I’M FINE

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Imperfect
So let me be
I just wanna live
And be homely
Don’t need nuthin’
No I don’t need a thing
Let’s pack it up
And get back to things
Where it’s cold
You try to stay warm
You drink tea
And sing songs
Oh, woah it’s coming back again
Air, I don’t care anymore
‘Bout the snakes and the bears, anymore
Don’t you dare, compare
And beware of my sister golden hair
Air, I don’t care anymore
‘Bout the waves and the sand, anymore
Don’t you dare, beware
And take care of my sister golden hair
Air, I don’t care anymore
‘Bout the way that I am, anymore
Don’t you dare, compare
And beware of sister golden hair.
I’ve been waiting for this
Nothing will come near me now
And the thought of something new
Deep inside this thought is true
I wonder how I’ll get to you
I’ve been waiting for this
Nothing will get in my way
All the things that you can do
Everything I know is true
I wonder what will happen too
Saturday night at a sports bar
With some tropical band
Sunday you’ve got your head up in your hands
A long time ago we were friends
But now it could never be
And when I think of this it makes me sick
Go go back to the ones you loved in 1998
Fall fall back with your high school friends
Just to fill up your lonely days
A long time ago we were friends
But now it could never be
And when I think of this it makes me sick
Saturday night at some dumb bar
With your stupid cover band
What the hell are you doing to me man?
A long time ago we were friends
But now it could never be
And when I think of this it makes me sick
I packed up my bags and headed east
I saw such beauty in front of me
It shimmered, it sparkled all around
But soon it all gave way to muted sound
I say hey would you listen please?
I’m waiting here on bended knee
I think that I was wrong in my discovery
You see, I’m so lonely
Even though it isn’t cold
Hey would you look into my soul?
‘Cause I think it’s empty
Hey hey what I need now is family
I need a stable net hangin’ round me
I don’t want the flash and any fame
I wanna live and die just by my name
I say hey would you listen please?
I’m waiting here on bended knee
I think that I was wrong in my discovery
You see, I’m so lonely
Even though it isn’t cold
Hey would you look into my soul?
‘Cause I think it’s empty
Banshee!
What you doing to me?
I’ve been lost and out on the sea
This time I’ve nothing to give
Banshee!
Where do you wanna live?
It’s been so long
Since you’ve came through
It’s been so long
I don’t know what to do
All my dying days come forth
This is not what it’s worth
This is only a test
I’ll do my best
Banshee!
What you doing to me?
I’ve been lost and out on the sea
This time I’ve nothing to give
Banshee!
Where do you wanna live?
It’s been so long
One year and a day
It’s been so long
I’ve got nothing to say
All my dying days come forth
This is not what it’s worth
This is only a test
I’ll do my best
This time I know I’m right for this
Anyways, I have some questions
What is it you want that comes from me?
This time I will be so strong
And I’ll put all of this in song
Anything you want it comes from me
Watching and waiting
I am anticipating
Don’t blame me for this
Cause I’ve got nothing to give
Don’t blame me for this
Cause I’ve got nothing to give you anymore
Can you define the word friend for me?
What does it mean to you?
Without a voice, I’m let down again
Now is this all that you do?
I had faith in you my friend
Up until the very end
Oh, the silence says
I can’t rely on anyone
I had faith in you my friend
Up until the very end
Oh, the silence says
I can’t rely on anyone
Can’t sleep
Think about the window
Don’t know
Which way I’m gonna go
All these
Things that live in my head
Don’t know where or when
These are
The things that I’ve been thinking
All this
Time I’ve spent predicting
I can’t
See the future clear
So anyways
I’m saving some grace
in this small machine
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